Already! Wednesday will be one year since we first/finally saw his sweet face. I feel slightly guilty that his big day will be my landmark of an entire year since the craziest event of my life. I suspect (hope) that eventually the reactive shallow breathing and cold sweat will fade and all that will be left is "Kaleb's Birthday". As it is, even the smell of the brand of wipes we used that first month is enough to stop the air dead in my lungs.
The whirlwind of his arrival was something that completely knocked me on my ass and left me scrambling to find my SELF again. Now, having finally attained some measure of who I used to be and who I'm supposed to be today, I'm not exactly eager to revisit the floundering insecurity of this last year. I love our lives once again, where there were more moments than not that I honestly wondered if I ever could again - never once because of our precious little man, but rather because of the monster that threatened him. I'm so grateful that our life with him is just begining, rather than already ending.
Our new lives are spectacular and I am finally again looking forward to the path we will travel, as a solid and sound unit.
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Happy birthady dear Kaleb happy birthday to youuuuuu
ReplyDeleteLove Tillie and Ranger
Happy happy first birthday to Kaleb. What a cutie, I love reading about him and his adventures and milestones. It really brings back so many wonderful memories of Spencer! Thank you for sharing the adorable photos. I have a little something coming Kaleb's way in celebration of this special day - sorry it's not in the mail yet, it's report card season.
ReplyDeleteHailie would you please let me know if you got my Christmas card. If you did I'm happy and that's all that's important, but I have heard stories of mail being stolen and I know that my cheque was cashed.
A quick email is all that is necessary to confirm -- jskimom1@shaw.ca Thanks !
All the best to you all as you celebrate this special day with your sweet little man.
Love Janice